falling meteor

i cant sleep. is it because i am used to working late?

or is it because my life has shifted another dimension...

this weekend, i spent another vacation with my close friends, again, in Iba, Zambales. there's nothing much to say except that we spent it in a beach, where the waters reach the farthest your eyes can go (it's already the South China Sea so it's infinite), where it is extremely romantic at night with the stars...and all those "beach stuff".

but what makes it so special that i can't sleep now that i just got home and my body's tired from heavy traffic in Pampanga?

i am not at liberty to say anything at the moment, except that i saw a falling meteor, right there when i was walking along the seashore on Saturday night...the night was so romantic already...and it even got more romantic, more special after that meteor incident...it was around 3-5seconds, a bit smaller than the glowing moon (so it is big for a falling star, right?) and it was moving slow...and still burning...it was awesome...

i was not able to wish, though, stupid of me! but the thing is, we take these things for granted. when we catch a falling star, we make a wish right away...this one was different, though. it was, like i said, slow and big and burning..all the more reason for me to make a wish...i had time...but i didn't. all i said was, "beautiful!" that's it. i did not think of myself for a moment there, but i appreciated what i saw...my whole heart longed for that, even until now.

and somehow, i am like the meteor...burning, alive, in the sense that i still am capable of loving and being loved in a different way. falling, in the sense that i may be too weak for my self...

but nonehteless, i long to be wanted...like it's a bad thing...but, for sometime now, i have been doing charity things to those people i expected nothing in return, but somehow, i still longed for it...and here is someone, the audience of that meteor, my audience, watching every move i make, noticing me...caring for me...appreciating me...longing for me...