Why Now?

Today's the last day of my cousin Raymond's wake at Christ the King. He was only 44, cancer of the muscle.

At the service, emotive as it was, her younger sister delivered the highlights of Kuya Raymond's life in her 4-page eulogy. What clobbered me the most was her last few statements about asking God, "Why now?" I quote her, "Why does he have to go now that he is more preoccupied with better and more important things in life?"

Apparently, Kuya Raymond, in his last few months here on Earth decided to change his existence by having a closer relationship with God and to have a sense of deep soul searching. Ate Ochie told us that maybe God was just waiting for him for this. I guess she's right. Even until the end, The Lord never gives up on us. Even until the end, He would still want us to become better men.

On a more personal note, I myself, have been asking God so many questions. I should be happy that even if i won't be able to have another child, God has given Ean to me, more than just a son, but a friend too. I should be happy that atleast there was someone who deserved my love, even for just a while.

Things really are always what they seem to be...